aLL aBouT mE, HiM & Ma LyFe

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2010-04-16T10:36:00.002+08:00

so much has been goin on lately... tired xhausted no will left in me 2 go on... im abt 2 gif up.. cnt hold on anymore.. i nid him 2 b here wif me.. 2 tell me he cares... bt i dun c it cumin frm him.. y is dat so???????? m i stl his 2 begin with???? y is he treatin me like a fren... all i nid is emotional support frm him.. nvr haf i asked 4 anyting dat is impossible...

i wish i cn juz disappear frm da face of dis earth!

2010-03-25T23:28:00.002+08:00

I dunno wat 2 say i dunno wat 2 type i dunno wat 2 update... its juz dat so many tings haf been goin on lately.. its aldy reachin up 2 my neck... i wish i cn juz dsappear frm da face of dis earth.... away frm da probs away frm evry1, evrybody... i knw dis is sort of like an escapist bt im really lost... lost frm my direction in life... dunno wer im goin dunno wer im headin... wer do i c myself in 5yrs time???? I DUNNO!!!!

sum1 pls make all dis troubles go away.. pretty pls????

random

2010-03-24T01:37:00.004+08:00

Been so long i last updated.. lol... anw here r sum pics of da mentel lil gerl... courtesy of Lis my sister

sweet n gorgeous rite??? lol...

Finally after so long....... an UPDATE!!!!!!

2009-12-06T21:40:00.003+08:00

*blow dust*.... Dusty old blog i've got here ya... hehehhehe...

Been bz wif werk... (ouh ya did i mention i gt myself a job wif G2000 as sales coordinator???) =)
Nt really my idea of a perfect job bt well its btr den nuthin...

Early dis yr (may or june i gez) i finally sort of found my long l0st cuz Erma aka gegerl on FB...
3 of us (inclusive of my sis) met up 4 a so called reunion cum bday dinner in Vivocitaaaayyy..
I tot i juz plain missed her cos we grew up 2gether bt den i tink i was wrong cos wen i saw her a kinda very hepi feelin overcame me... mcm terobat rindu gitu.. hahahha... i kinda realized i reali reali missed her cos she was once part of my life, my family (i mean stl is lar)
She is nw aldy ngaged 2 Faizal... her bf of 7yrs (all da best u 2)

We juz met up yesterday fer dinner at......

Nice food... great company... burnt prawns.... im lazy 2 b uploadin da pics 1 by 1 so ya'll pls juz view my fb 4 further pics..
My sis, my cuz & urs truly me at inter continental... (went dere cos we needed da loo so badly after chillin at tcc... heheh

my eyes r gettin sleepy nw... slept at 4am cos i cnt get 2 slp... (insomnia???) i juz wanna hit da sack so badly nw... paipai peeps

2009-04-30T20:10:00.004+08:00

Sumtimes i feel like i haf a boifren only in name... he dun even care abt me... its always his werk, poker & nvrendin online games!!!!!! Im tired... i had enuf of dis..... i dun even asked him 2 pamper me in material wise... bt juz care & concern at least show me he luvs me da way he say it. No he cnt... he fail 2 do so....

hellllloooooooooo

2009-04-29T23:56:00.003+08:00

Been a long time since i updated anyting here in my blogspot...
Well actually deres nuthin much 2 update la... Tings r normal xcept dat i haven been very lucky in work wise ever since i left MGTC. As u all knw economy's bad... hard gettin a job... haiz
Im juz kipin my fingers crossed & hope dat i will land myself a job soon.

As 4 me & him... well normal uh... He stl wif his old self. Bz & no time 4 me. I dun get it sumtimes u c... my frenz BFs r well equally bz as him bt y cn dey actually spend time wif GFs. Bt my bf??? Hmmmm... if we ever go out on a date den it'll b a miracle!!!!!!!!!! He dun gif me a cl wen he's hme anymore.... we seldom communicate... juz simple msges cumin frm him nw & den... i dun mean 2 complain & im nt bein demandin bt at least da basic needs frm a man dat evry women nid is TLC!!! Da only time i cn c him is wen he feels like cumin bck 2 my plc 4 a slpover & its like once or twice evry wk... do u pple seriusly tink dat amount of time is enuf??? alek da 11+, mkn mandi main lappy den tdo!!!! i mean i dun get 2 c u always... 4 FUCK sake... kip da lappy away la kn????? do it wen u get hme or at werk. haiz!!!!!!!!!!

Sumtimes he shows dat he cares... sumtimes i cn c dat cumin frm him bt sumtimes he juz has dis heck care attitude dat i do nt unstd y. He always kip 2 dis sentence... pple cn c him at his best wen dey dserve it. Den as his gf dun i dserve him at his best?????????????????? It puzzles me sumtimes. nk kata dia tk syg dia syg... haiz... well at least he nvr fail 2 remember our anni evry mth... lol... deres positive & negative side abt him. he's juz plain stubborn & wun listen 2 anyting pple say.

BUY ME A HAMMER SO I CAN KNOCK DA STUBBORNNESS OFF HIS HEAD!!!!!! LOL!!!!!!

My dearest boncet 27th bday

2009-02-28T20:05:00.003+08:00

3rd March is his 27th bday...bt he kips on sayin its his 17th bday. Cant blame him fer dat...pple livin in denial is always like dat hahahah... well i got him FCUK bag 4 his gift. I hope he likes it. He really nids a big bag 2 fit in all his stuffs.

Even tho its xpensive bt i dun mind lar as long as he's hepi. My only wish 4 him is 2 werk hard, stay hepi & smile always. Hope we do last long tho i sumtime feel like givin up (cos he cn b a really nasty jerk at times u knw heheheh) bt most of all I LURVE HIM LOTS!!!!!!!

I dunno y im sooo in lurve wif him. Deres juz sumting special abt him dat i cnt describe in words. His smile is captivating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (ok gosh dis is sooo random lar)

He's been so bz remindin pple ard him abt his upcomin bday & asking fer presents. Hahaha.
Tapik cute kn kip on pesterin pple fer presents like small kid sey. hahaha

I hope he will haf a very hepi bday is yr =)

stress!!!!!!

2009-02-07T12:13:00.004+08:00

im stress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! boipren make me unhepi.... boipren dun unstd me.... boipren nvr try 2 unstd me.... if only he will spend a min 2 put himself in my shoes den i blive he cn really c wat i 1. i dun wish 4 him 2 b showering me wif diamonds, gifts or material wise.. al i ever ask 4 is care & concern frm him. a lil bit of his time is wat i 1 most. we dun go on dates like normal couples. im dprived of dat. im a woman sey i haf feelings. i do wanna feel pampered by a man at times. i feel sooooo neglected by him.

Even on his off days wen im werkin he dosen even bother 2 take da initiative 2 fetch me frm werk etc etc... wat m i 2 him??? wer do i stand in his heart?? am i even his priority?? hw do i entrust my whole life 2 him like dis?? does he even care?? does he even bother??

im in pain... my heart is in pain. Total pain. he always haf dis heck care attitude. even wen i text him saying hw i feel he dun even bother 2 reply me bck. 2 him its unnecessary msg.

Mohamed Faizal Bin Ali aka Fred.... all i nid is ure time, all i want is ure care & concern. all i want is my old Faizal bck. da 1 dat i knw few mths bck da 1 dat had made me hopelessly in luv wif. He was so full of careness. I cn sense his sincerity in watever he had done 4 me.

Bt nw its a total different feeling. im tired i really m. bt i luv him i really luv dis man alot =(

updates

2009-01-18T23:22:00.001+08:00

Ok 1st i wanna say hi, hello 2 evry1... been so so so long ya... well tings nt been goin dat smoothly 4 me... havin sum probs in my new werk.. i mean nuthin 2 do wif my werk performance (it has always been gd.. haha) bt rather sumting's up wif da new company im werkin wif. Shall nt mention it here lest i get sued 4 slander hahahah.. I dun even knw if im gonna last a mth dere.. well tk bole tahan pn kena tahan jugak dok... economy crisis hehehhehehe bt i made new frenz at my new werkin plc... bcame really close wif 1 of da vietnam gerl dere.
Im nw dwn wif flu... hurhurhur... & im sufferin da rindu sickness hahah... mcm angau lak ehk... well boifren has been bz wif werk 4 da past few mths & we hardly even mit. I tink mayb abt once evry wk???? nt enuf lar... boifren pls i juz wanna haf sum of ure time???? Haiz pple may tink dat we mit evry other day bt da truth is we dun... & our nite conversations is usually short & brief after a day of nt contactin each other (cos normally he cudnt afford da time 2 call or msg me wen he's werkin). Jus updates on da day's happenings den its off 2 bed. Its fine wif me cos i unstd his tiredness & all.
We dun even mit on his off days!! Like wth... well he nids all da slp he cn get wen he has da time 2 slp.. cos wen he werk its 12hrs straight! kesian kn??? haiz... I cnt complain cn i???? At least he hold a decent job nw... cn set my mind at ease at least 4 as long as he's stl on da job (He used 2 job hop alot...im hepi he's chnge).
Bt den once a while i cnt help bt whine cos we dun haf enuf time 2gether bt he dun seem 2 care. Evry time i bring up tis topic he will juz brush it off
Well men... dey r a bunch of selfish creatures. Watever word dat cums out frm da mouth of us women is unimportant... 2 em we r juz plain naggy ishk!!!
Ok my eyes da cnnt take it... pai pai peepz... lalaland here i cum hehehhe

movie date movie date movie date

2008-12-22T17:58:00.004+08:00

Peeps knw wat.... as i was rambling last nite abt bein deprived of dates...

I am goin 4 1 2day!!! I haf a movie date wif boipren... !!!!!!!!!!! lol....

Ok gonna get ready nw... paipai =)

Ramblings

2008-12-21T19:29:00.002+08:00

Okae... i juz got bck frm my cuz weddin. Another 1 of my cuz is gettin ngaged in March nxt yr.
Uncles & aunties been askin me da same question evry nw & den. "Dian biler nk kawin"??? lol...
Smpai naik seram babe nk jumpe dorg. I dunno im juz nt ready 2 go in2 marriage life. It aint easy bein sum1's wifey ya knw. Its even harder bcumin a mom. Kids nwadays.... OMG!!! dey r such a pain in da ***.
Bt yeah i dont deny dey r cute & i do lurve kids bt 2 actually haf ure own & take care of em...... Nah ah...
Juz kill me, i'll b more willin. hehs.

Well, thks 2 god my boipren isnt really in2 marriage either. I mean nt rite nw la even tho our age is growing older nt younger (we r aldy 26 mind u...hehs). we juz wanna b more stable i guess & furthermore im jobless nw. Like really pple... Im jobless!!! My co had 2 close dwn cos bck in Maldives dey had a change of President in Nov & da new president didnt find MGTC of any use at all. Dat is y it close dwn. Dey claim dat dey will pay me & da rest a compensation package bt till nw i didnt hear a ting frm em. Sheesh!! irritatin ehk??? hehe... My daily routine nw is wake up flip thru classifieds, surf jobstreet, jobsdb, mkn, tdo go intevius....Gawd!! wat a pathethic life i've got.

Boipren is 2 busy wif his werk 2 entertain me. He werks 12hrs a day. Hardly haf enuf time 4 his slp, hw 2 ask him out??? haiz..... da only time i cn c him is wen he cum over 2 my plc 4 a sleepover which is seldom. We r nt datin like any other datin couples. Im deprived of dates!!!!!!!!!!! totally deprived!!!!! hahahha. I 1 my movie dates, shoppin dates or watever other normal datin couples do!!!! My bithces is 2 bz wif werk, hubbies & bfs 2 even bother abt me.... *sob sob*
I mean we stl chit chat, gossip2 otp bt i 1 meetups... gerls plz... MEETUPS!!!! i mish ya peepz sooo much.
I miz yanti's stupid bt entertainin jokes, i miz julaiha's scoldins & vulgarities, i miz abot's gossips hahah i miz all of those..... haiz....

OK im off 4 more tv watchin & bummin ard at hme... till den PAI PAI PEEPZ.

surprise

2008-12-05T21:26:00.004+08:00

Yeay!!!!!! Boipren gave me a surprise last nite....

knowin dat my current hp is faulty, he bought me a new 1

even tho its nt da laest model bt stl its da tot dat counts

given bf current financial state cos he juz started werkin

dis is gd enuf 4 me

i din xpect him 2 buy it 4 me.

Its also meant as a gift 4 our 4mths anni hehehhee

Thks boipren i lurve u =)

Our slide show

2008-11-10T16:38:00.000+08:00

mixed emotions???

2008-11-10T16:10:00.004+08:00

Well.... its a sleepy monday 4 me... kept dozing off on my workdesk... hehehe..
Lack of slp... was waitin till late 4 Boipren 2 reach hme frm werk... didnt get 2 talk 2 him nor c him dats y...
He's been so bz of late.. i mean yeah i knw he's werkin im nt complainin its juz dat im feelin neglected.
Gosh... mayb dat time of da mth is cumin dats y im so emo. Hahaha..

He werk evryday... wkdays, wkends, public hols.... etc etc... only gets his off day like wat once a wk & wen he's off im werkin!!! we dun get 2 spend quality time 2gether tho i knw he tries very hard 2 squeeze in watever time he has 2 spend it wif me & he tries 2 make it a point 2 at least cum bck 2 my plc once a wk. Bt of cos i pity him, by da time he reach wlds he's so tired & all... wud i stl haf da heart 2 deprive him of his slp????? he werks like wat 11am - 11pm everyday... 12hrs??? haiz... if i were 2 dprive him of his slp juz so dat we cud spend substantial amount of time 2 gether den i guez he wud haf 2 turn up 4 werk lookin like a zombie.

Im seriously nt da possessive, obssessive & demanding kinda gf. I haf nvr asked him 4 anyting thru out our 3mths rshp. He knws dat himself 4 a fact. Bt den we r kinda drifting apart... we dun communicate dat much.

Arghhh!! its sooo hard 2 xplain in words larr... i knw he luvs me, he always say he do. Bt in a rshp it takes more den juz sayin i luv u evryday 2 dat special sum1. Mayb im juz worried or worse stl juz paranoid dat sumting nt gd will happen 2 us. U knw by drifting apart slowly u cn cause a breakup???? Cause yeah it takes two 2 tango...

Well watever it is im juz gonna kip my fingers crossed & hope things take a turn 4 da btr. If in any way we feel like dis rhsp shdnt continue anymore at least i knw i've tried my best.

Paipai peepz.... imma gonna go on hme nw & juz sit ard & wait 4 his call... stupid??? cos i luv him... dats y =)

2008-11-08T11:47:00.002+08:00

Its wkend again... well on thurs went 2 dble O wif sis & boipren 2gether wif sista's colleagues... had a pre bday celeb 4 her... her bday's on 9th Nov which is 2mrw btw...after which dey proceeded 2 Living Rm at Mariott. Me & Boipren went hme straight after Dble O cos we r werkin da nxt day. I didnt really enjoy da time dere cos my gastritis was actin up due 2 my late meal 4 da day. wanted 2 go hme earlier bt sis was beggin us 2 stay usin her pathethic stay wif me pls looks. hahaha

Woke up late 4 wrk hehehehe... was sleepy like shit at werk... cud barely open up my eyes. Wen i got hme frm werk on Fri i headed straight 2 da kitchen 4 dinner, eat my medicines (stupid flu & cough dat jus wun go away) Boipren had 2 force me 2 c da doc hehehe. Well bck 2 da story... after poppin da pills & stuff i lepak in my room on da comforts of my own bed while watchin tv... i guess da effects of Dhasedyl (cough syrup) was kickin in, i felt so drowsy dat i fell aslp wifout realisin it. Woking up only dis morning 2 da sounds of my Hp alarm tone. Tk sadar pn yg dearest boipren had msged me at 1.39am saying he juz got hme frm werk hehehe

Am at werk nw... thinking wat shd i do 4 sis 2mrw... wat shd i plan??? she luvs tiramisu shd i get dat 4 her??? Me & boipren had aldy gave her her presents last wk.. bought her Guess wallet dat she had always wanted & also gave her S$50 2 buy anyting she nids.. Boipren gave her a Polo Ralph Polo T. Da youngest in da famz is always pampered huh...

& yeah nw lemme gif boipren a call... to c wat he cn suggest.

Paipai peepz <3

3rd mth =)

2008-11-05T09:53:00.003+08:00

Its our 3rd mth 2day.... yesh on 5th of evry mth is our special date =)

& its nice 2 knw dat we r stl so much in luv even tho da so called honeymoon period is up....

He's stl da 1 i look 4ward 2 seein evry time i open my eyes in da mrng & da 1 i wanna say gd nite 2 b4 closin my eyes at nite... da 1 i pine 4 evry minute of da day. I wouldnt say he's my evryting, my heart or my soul cos dat is total exaggeration... bt i do knw 4 sure dat he is & will always be a big part of my life (",)

MD FAIZAL ALI..... I LOVE U....!!!!

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2008-10-23T15:37:00.001+08:00

Well, i dun really celebrate Hari Raya... so deres no wonderin y my raya pics is so pathethic... kekekeke...
Anw, 4 me as long as i get 2 spend it wif my family & luv ones den its more den enuf 4 me =)

Raya 2008 random pics

2008-10-23T15:28:00.004+08:00

Wat my horoscope stands 4

2008-10-19T00:11:00.001+08:00

MyHotComments

2008-10-18T18:56:00.003+08:00

Rebel, kyra & frenz came over 2 my hme 4 raya-ing earlier on....
i was stl sleepin sia.... suddenly fone rang "kak we cumin over in 10mins"
i was like wat!!!?? jumped out of bed... got evryting ready 4 em... heheheh
ape yg ade je la... cos da nk abes raya kueh pn da langsai hehhehee...

khai was wif em 2... nw m juz chillin wif my lappy in da comforts of my own bed!!
Nk slp lagik ni.... hehehehe... ... rite i knw tis is so random bt well who cares... =)

k k... pai pai pplez

My addictive content!!!

2008-10-18T12:18:00.000+08:00

Addictive content in my personality is 78%

Beware!!! people easily get addicted to me

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juz whinings

2008-10-18T12:06:00.003+08:00

Boiporen slept over at my plc last nite.... yeay!! hehehe...

well evrytime im wif him i feel like as if im a lil gerl... cos he pampers me like 1...

He has aldy went 2wrk.. yeah he gt a job wif Ace mobile...

M nt werkin 2day.... aiyoh... mendak siol kat umah... i cn juz die of boredom...

Boipren nt free 2 accompany me... hehas mobilisation tingy goin on later... NS stuffs...

dun bother 2 take note anw... hehehehhe..

*Yawnnnnnzzzzzzzzzz* well imma gonna go bck 2 slp again.... wakin up again later larr....

till den c ya pplez.....

haizzzzzz

2008-10-17T16:48:00.003+08:00

Haiz.... i dun even knw hw many entries i haf posted 4 my blogs 2day...... i cn juz go on & on & on & on & on... its friggin borin in da ofis.... i cn criously die of boredom like sooner or later.... bt den TGIF!!!! I'll be off 2mrw... Yippppppppeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! i cn sooo like wake up till late afternoon... or juz lepakin on my comfy bed wif my lappy!!!! dun haf 2 drag myself out of bed early mrng... i hate dat feelin lar....

& knw wat.....???? IM MISSIN BOIPREN LOADS, HEAPS & BUNCHES!!!!!!!!!! Boipren..... cum mit me soon... dun kip me missin ya soooo long... its a terrible feelin which i do nt like... effing do nt like i tell u... i wanna hug u 2 slp!!! I soooo wanna hug my boncet teddy bear!!!! heheheh...

Okhy... loike great larr... while typin out dis stupid random whinings of mine... its rainin out dere... ishk!!!!! Hate it man.... like Dang!!! gonna get all wet sia later... haiz...

Ok2... 5pm is cumin soon!!!! Im packin up.... NK ALEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yeay2!!!! kekekekeke....

Paipai pplez who is stl waitin patiently 2 go hme..... kekekekeke =)

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Makeover (late update)

2008-10-17T11:40:00.006+08:00

This was bck in 2003.... stl young =)

Makeover at Clarke Quay in June

After makeover

I dun really like da makeup & all.... bt since it was free... wth i dun mind
juz gave it a try lor... hehehehehehe
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Da reason y i luv him????

2008-10-17T10:44:00.000+08:00

A feeling of love and passion is only but a few things of how you make me feel for you.I can honestly say that the first day we meet was the best day of my life. I remember when I first looked into your eyes I could see everything good and bad about you, but obviously bad always comes with the good it makes us who we are. I love absolutely everything about you. Its hard to describe in words how I feel about you. I dont know what I would be doing now if you werent in my life. You have helped change me in so many ways. You have made me a better person. You helped me change my bad habits. My heart beats for you my love. You are perfect in every way. When my emotions have taken over me you are always there for me, guiding me, and helping me relax. I am grateful to have such a wonderful person in my life such as your self. When we are together we never have a dull moment. You always have me smiling, laughing and feeling so in love with you. I honestly thought I would never find such an incredible person like you. We have shared so many memories together. From day one I felt a connection with you.I dont have to bother pretending to be someone when I am with you.

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U tell me

2008-10-17T10:36:00.001+08:00

I remember what he told me,

whispered sweetly in my ear,
with that angelic voice,"I will never leave you, my dear."

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Him

2008-10-17T03:35:00.000+08:00

Well.... i juz got bck frm fetchin Boipren & my sis bck frm werk....
Actualli Boipren ends his werk at 9pm whereas my sis ends at 130am... well in btwn waitin 4 my sis
we actualli accompanied Khai 2 do his part time werk....
Its kinda like a movers tingy.... 2day was helpin da Ite Simei audio & Media students transport their items after their 'shooting'. Had Mcdonalds 4 supper... Boipren bought 4 us... gonna put on weight sia like dis... asek mkn jek.... hehhehe

We went frm Taman Jurong && as far as Changi 2 send them... phew!! long wait larr.... & i stl haf 2 werk in da mrng... cudnt get 2 slp yet cos while chattin wif Boipren otp earlier on we had a lil argument...
Hahahah... actualli nuthin much juz sum stupid misunderstandin... bt he chose 2 end da conversation on a bad note... haiz... guys.... dey cn be quite egoistic at times huh...

Bt im sure we'll be juz fine wen mrng cums.... Boipren is always like dis... he will 4get all unpleasantness or unhappiness very fast... he wudnt let da argument drag till deres no endin... cos he luvs me & wudnt wanna c us driftin apart =)

He's quite swit actualli... many a times wen we argue... he will juz ignore my msges... & out of a sudden u will c him in front of my doorsteps... hehehe... he will coax me like as if im a lil gerl... he's always dere wen i nid him...

I feel blessed havin him in my life.... hope all dis happiness isnt short lived & dat our luv story has a beautiful hepi endin 2 it... i luv u my dear & i wudnt wanna trade my luv 4 u for anyting in dis world...

Specially 4 u

2008-10-16T16:41:00.001+08:00

He's the guy who makes me feel like I belong to this world
He makes me happy and I know he loves me
I try not to forget, but when I forget

I know I'll regret
I have to have him always in my mind
If I don't my fears won't be left behindI just have to remember his bright shining eyes

The eyes I always fall for
The eyes that makes me love him even more

That's not all I love him 4
But also bcos, I know he'll never let me fall
And he will be with me through everything and all

Sometimes when I get mad & sad or
When I think about getting mad or sad
I try to think about the hugs
The hugs that makes me feel safe

I love him more than anything in my life
He's the only one who can make my day
Anytime, any place, anyway & anyday
He never ignores me

He never hurt me
although I hurt him much

He never leaves me alone when I really need him
He never gives me da cold shoulder
He never tells me a lie
because he loves me with passion and sincerity

He never betrays my love for him
When I lost myself, He will hold me tight
When I feel so suffocated, He will kiss me gently
When I am in a plaintive mood, He will whisper beside my ear

When I touch him softly, I can see his sweet smiling
When I am happy, He goes into raptures over my happiness
When I am in a dilemma, He will point me the way where I should go

When I keep quiet, He will just sit beside me and hug me
When I cry, He kisses my forehead and says "love you sweetheart…"

Nobody can replace him
No matter how perfect the other guys are
Because "he is the only one" who can really touch
my heart and my soul and protect me totally… We r havin a splendid time 2gether which I'll
nvr forget…ever…

My love for him will never ever die
....always lurvin u till da last breath of mine.....

Md FaizaL aLi aka DJ FrEd

His SmiLe

2008-10-16T16:35:00.000+08:00

Everytime I see him smile, he brightens up my day. There's something in his smile,that makes me feel thrilled all day. I wonder why, what's in his smile??? Because everytime I see him smile, my heart is melting... like an ice cream melting. I'm happy when he smiles at me. He's got a killer smile. Because of his mysterious smile, I go crazy when he smiles at me. And now, I realize that in his smile... I see heaven when he smiles <3